Coping with a Loss

Over the last two weeks, I’ve been grieving and trying to figure out how I’m going to move forward after experiencing a sudden loss. I feel like just last month I was laughing with this person and making plans to see them again. I didn’t realize that I would never see this person again.  

It’s been two weeks since I found out that my eye brow threading place closed down.

I wasn’t prepared for this sudden loss. I was just making plans to have my esthetician do my eyebrows for a upcoming trip. I was even going to have her do my eyebrows for my wedding.  

It’s so true that you never know how much someone means to you until you lose them. I didn’t realize how little time I had with my esthetician until it was too late.  

You may be thinking to yourself that I’m being a little too dramatic because there are so many other places I could go just a stone’s throw away. You may be correct and I will admit that I’m being a tad bit dramatic. I blame my four years of theater, but it does feel like a legitimate loss.

I have been going to the same woman for more than two years. I first came to her when a popular place butchered my brows beyond repair. I came to her so afraid to have anyone touch my brows and over the last couple of years she’s served as a makeshift therapist whom I saw once a month for ten minutes max but she impacted my everyday life. It was a serious relationship–– but not a serious relationship.   

Putting my dramatics aside, you really never realize how much a person will impact your life. I have a long list of people I love and will call up in a minute but I also have a long list of people that make me smile. I may not have their personal phone numbers, know where they live, or know their family but we have a enough of a connection that we both impact each other’s life.  

I think with the fast pace of life we forget that these people become a part of our family. When I rocked a shaved head, my barber became like a big brother. He was a constant source of knowledge and laughter. I may be in a different place in my life but I am still impacted by our interactions.  

So here’s to my former esthetician, my next one, and to all those who are on the list of those who make me smile.

xoxo

– Shay